Weekend Fantasy

have so many fantasies....the one that gets me lately, is having access to a house out in the middle of nowhere, for a week or weekend, where i can dress up, all day. No one knows of my lustful secret....so the idea of being able to stay this way without thought, gets me so hard and such in the mood. I look for any moment alone, to go all out,. That is very rare.

The freedom to wake up, already in whatever I choose to fall asleep with, no rush to hide and clean up. I can go out to the window and just stare out and enjoy me, fully.

Of course, I want it in the middle of nowhere, where I can be totally uninhibited, be as loud as I want - usually, renting a hotel room, I have to restrain music, moaning, how dirty I'd like to get. I'm so hard, thinking about how far I could go, with no restraint. somewhere, where there are fields where you are away from the city and there are no lights in the sky...to be utterly alone and by yourself

I love the weeks leading up to any one of my events, buying a new toy, a special drink, some good green, new toys, wig.... love researching the newest trends I'm not aware of yet. For this, I have time. Time is on my side. Will be working on size this time, I have purchased the big blue before and have gotten it almost all the way in... I am sure over the course of the first night, it will be handled. I love my vibrating anal pump, it gets to the size of over a softball. I love pushing it out and at the same time, sucking it back in. I love the training in the beginning of any adventure.

i'm getting into poppers, i love how it opens me up, literally and figuratively..... I love getting in the drop out zone, where I lose myself and just am 100% purely free....

Arriving there, I would unpack everything, lie out all of my toys (electro stims, Anal pumps, beads, cock rings, whatever excites me at the store on the way) all of my wardrobe, dresses, nightware, a ton of varieties, I love putting on a show for my camera - I love to video myself in all of the adventures I have. i would love love love to get a fuck machine i can attach big dildos too, to get the real feel. Nothing scares me.