A Religious Experience

A Religious Experience
by Sabrina G. Langton

*Stories from the real world 2
This story is kinda autobiographical.

I was twenty-two in 1987.

You couldn't just order anything you wanted on the computer, with no social interaction, and get whatever you wanted. You had to go out in the real world and stand on a real line, and talk to a cashier, then pass people when you were done, and then take everything you bought home and hope nobody asked you any questions. Ugh.

I knew I liked girls' clothes when I was nine. I decided this was something I wanted to pursue. I figured the house had 4 women in it now, what's the difference if there was another one. That's when I knew I was a crossdresser. I called myself Donna, and I never told anyone. There were always different outfits around, I had three older sisters, and lots to choose from. I just had to figure out how to do it so no one knew it was me. The basement of the house became a sanctuary. We had a big bathroom down there, with long mirrors, and I would lock the door and try on everything I found in the hampers or any clothing destined for the wash. I also took some pictures that I sent away by mail and two weeks later they came back all developed. Things were wonderfully quick back then.

Years later in the winter of 1987, I had a substantial amount of woman's items, I called my own. I got some from my Mother and the sisters, and some I bought. Buying female clothes as a male was the hardest part about crossdressing. All I wanted was to shop for dresses and heels and especially pantyhose and stockings. That's what I really loved. I had used every excuse, thinking that no one ever heard them before. I was buying this for my girlfriend or sister, and it was so soul-crushing not to be able to try anything on. Once you were home, there was no going back and exchanging if it didn't fit. Usually, I wouldn't even go back to the same store ever again. I figured they were all talking about me, but once I gained a couple of outfits I was fine, I could relax a little while. It was the stockings that tended to get runs or get stretched out, so I was always looking to acquire more.